JUST STOP IT! It’s silly talk

 

How I know I’m NOT ready to die. The list is a mile long but the obvious?! I’m still here! I haven’t sold all my belongings and given away everything I own…I didn’t quit my job…visit the last destination on the “bucket list” (pun intended); take the “TV” version of doing life’s most embarrassing risks without a care…I don’t put my life on the line for a stranger in some random heroic catastrophe. But wait. Then again, usually when people want to kill themselves, they don’t do any of these things. It’s usually ‘life as usual’ one day and then the next day “gone”.

 

The suicide victim usually leaves a trail of destruction in their wake. Bills, debt, possessions, jobs, loved ones, friends, family none-the-wiser until it’s too late.

 

I journaled this Oct 2022 and recording it into the collection nearly a year later 9/29/23 and it’s funny how the mood has shifted a bit. I’m glad I didn’t do something crass. Death is permanent. Back then, I said – who am I fooling. Coward. Too afraid to live; to effervescent to die.  Just stop. Talking about it. Let it go.

 

Young people do not have it better. No ones’ life is any more or less valuable than another. “White” people; rich people, females, anybody you “think” to yourself “must be nice” and all the other ridiculous flesh worship colloquialisms – comes from two places: lust and envy. Both are against the grain and lead straight to coveting. As far as I can remember, I always had a ‘grass is greener’ ‘eye candy’ problem. Ooh, this car, this suit, this apartment, this house, this girl, this job etc. I always had a problem thinking with that. I’ll be so glad to be truly healed from these internal afflictions. They literally ruined my life. So, yeah, remember, don’t covet.

 

Like I say, while you’re feeling like that about someone or something you see, someone else is doing the same to you! They see something or someone in your life that makes them feel the same way. I may be lonely and single but I have family and friends and a lot of people don’t have that. I have my health and other blessings not afforded to others and instead of being grateful, I’m feeling fear of missing out but…. I have to tell myself the “grass is NOT greener!” It’s just a different shade from where you’re standing.

 

Once you walk over to that side, you see, sure there’s a couple of nice things about it but again; there’s pros and cons to everything. Nothing in this life is perfect. No. nothing. Everything has a flaw. Everyone has many.  And just like that, I’m over it. This is stupid. What the hell am I doing. No more. Stinking thinking. Enough. I’m over it. This is boring.

 

BE THE CHANGE

 

(And then suddenly or maybe not so suddenly – a burst of “yay! Life is great!” could be worse! Enjoy it! Hope this lasts longer than a day. Longer. Longing. Longing to look for “love.” For the love of God not “lust.” Life. Live in laughter. Not loathing. Lost the negative. Get the gusto. Jovial. Joy. Joy of life. Being alive. Part of me can’t stop. If I do, I will feel it again. Maybe. Say NO to being lonely. DEATH to Loneliness – how ‘bout that. Die – lonely hearts – die! Spite by nose to save my…die! 2 sides… (I was clearly rambling here but it led to this little comparison)

 

LIGHT                    DARK

GOOD                         BAD

NEW                           OLD

FRESH                         REPETITIVE

CHARMING                OFFENSIVE

QUIET                         LOUD

GIVE IN                       GIVE UP

FLOW                         STOP

SMOOTH                    ROUGH

UP                               DOWN

FLIGHT                        GROUNDED

WHY NOT                  WHY

JUST BE                      UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS

 

 

 

…LIGHT OUTSHINES DARKNESS…

            Dare to dream – push the limits – you are never too old if you really truly want something reach out for it and if the opportunity has passed you by; look into the alternatives that are the best fit for you at that moment; do not be afraid to seek a new passion; finding something new to be excited about can be rewarding; even if you don’t have one, the journey to find one can be exciting. Enjoy the journey, enjoy life!

It ain't over yet!

 

I have been blessed with a healthy eventful life full of reading, writing, books, music, movies, museums, travel, culture, arts, entertainment, and most of all, getting to know and developing an intimate personal relationship with God and Christ Jesus with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. It’s been great. Getting to know Him and getting to know the world and everything in it. It’s been enjoyable for the most part (lots of love, laughter, good times more than bad for sure and yet there are times when looking back on it all, it just makes me sad. It shouldn’t, though, right? A good life is a good life be thankful be joyous and be quiet. It could have been a lot different of course.

 

But still, I feel sad. It comes and goes all the time. Suicide, like sexual assault/rape…I definitely obviously don’t condone it, but I get it. I get “why” people do what they do. I don’t like it. I hate it like God does. But I get it. I get why people check out early. Maybe you live long enough to outlive all or most of friends and family or loved ones and you’re all that’s left or you devoted your life to fulfillment and betterment and it was plentiful and joyous and rewarding in God’s eyes as well as your own. Or you go back to feeling meh, if I left now would I ‘really’ be missing out on anything. It’s funny but if you have to think about it that much or that hard you don’t want to do it. You’re just going thru an emotional moment and this too shall pass. You literally dodged a bullet or whatever it was you were going to use and lived to embrace another day. And yes, there are those times where you might think, wait, I don’t “really” want to “die” that’s a little overdramatic for the “moment” that comes and goes. Permanent solution for a temporary sometimes bloated or inflated perceived problem.

 

And yeah, I get it; you don’t want to die and you don’t want to stay. The fence straddle can be quite uncomfortable surely. It’s a gray space. That line between too far gone and too close to the sun. I could understand if you wouldn’t be missed; but you will. I could even understand if you were not loved; but you are. It could even sort of understand if you were not important of didn’t matter to someone who depends on you in some way or another. But they do. And lastly, I could even try to swallow the hard pill if you were a hardened criminal who has turned his back on God and man and deserved to die for your crimes in sin! But you’re not.

 

You, see? Because you matter. Your life matters. And to have one foot in this life and one foot edging the door to “exit” this world, it’s clearly unhealthy and puts unnecessary pressure and stress on yourself that you don’t need. Most of all of these things mentioned. You “should” matter to “you” – you “should” love “you” – you would miss “you”! Trust and believe there is “something” in life you would miss if you were not here anymore. I don’t care if it was your favorite hobby, food or drink or place to go or person to visit – something or someone – you would miss. And believe or not – there is a moment of regret for most between that moment of initiating the execution upon yourself and that moment of no return; like a person who jumps or shoots themselves or whatever they tried – pills etcetera whatever and … ding ding wake up! Guess what?! You didn’t die! You survived the attempt or attempts. Whether it be by witness, medic, hospital, pastor, priest, family or friend; God saw it fit to STOP you.

 

Not yet. It is not your appointed time. The Bible is repeatedly clear on this.

https://www.openbible.info/topics/days_of_life

 

I look back on my life and think, wow, that may have been me. Was I the one living spiritually emotionally feeling like I had one foot in and one foot out? My songs, poems, short stories, all had a touch or pinch of darkness that reflect a deep to be more than I am; larger than life persona; a man’s man; the guy that all the ladies want to be with and all the men want to be; a distinguished gentleman; accomplished. Interesting; intriguing. I had an undertone of ‘god’ complex; I often wished I were an angel with powers; like a superhero out of a metaphysical comic book. Oh wait. That was already taken. By Jesus in the Bible; even scarier; that’s real!

 

Let’s change that desire. Let’s desire to matter. To more than others and God but to ourselves. If you get stuck in the “gray” – find yourself rambling on a broken tape of stinkin’ thinkin’ telling yourself all the wrong things when they should be positive uplifting and encouraging. The mind can be renewed! Romans 12:2.

You were fearfully and wonderfully made… Psalm 139:14

Brilliance. Color. Brilliance. Life. Brilliance. Light.

When the noise of life dampens the quiet of the spirit. Go back and read this again. It’s not over. Until it’s over. It ends when God says it ends. Until then, get to work! Get to living! Stop living to die and live to live! “Don’t give up…until you drink from the silver cup” – America/Lonely People. Just sayin’.

 

Say goodbye to yesterday and hello to tomorrow. Dare to dream? How about dare to live 😊 

Patience/Perseverance

See James 5:7-11.

“Patience/Perseverance”

 

⁷ Be patient, then, brothers and sisters, until the Lord’s coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop, patiently waiting for the autumn and spring rains. ⁸ You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near. ⁹ Don’t grumble against one another, brothers and sisters, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door!

¹⁰ Brothers and sisters, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. ¹¹ As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job’s perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.

 

I believe it is possible to live your whole life on earth and not fulfill your name’s purpose until we are in New Jerusalem/New Earth. (At least again like I’ve said before, I hope that during the thousand-year reign my dream about me Bobby and Darryl being AOC Regulators, shutting it down and taking names and since we’re immortal…no weapon formed against us prospers…ah well, I can dream)

 

Books to consider for cross-reference resources

Book of Enoch – CLICK HERE FOR FULL ENGLISH VERSION

Book of Jasher - https://archive.org/details/the-book-of-jasher-ken-johnson/mode/2up

Book of Jubilees - https://archive.org/details/CHARLESBookOfJubilees/mode/2up

Dead Sea Scrolls - https://archive.org/details/pdfy-Uy_BZ_QGsaLiJ4Zs

It is my deduction of “human-ology” that indeed, this “species” exists and survives extinction, solely by the Grace of God – yes – by God’s grace alone. Purely based upon the irrefutable truth that humans, are without any shadow of a doubt, complete, total, utter morons; serving, absolutely without argument, no true purpose whatsoever. Except to self-serve, sabotage, kill, steal and destroy – every single thing they have been given.

 

Human:

It is historically, unconditionally, without debate, overwhelmingly self-evident – they cannot have nice things. They exist, not to love/serve/be pleasant, but hate, loathe and vandalize, with unfathomable sodomy. Every ounce of mercy bestowed upon them from the Lord their God, Yehovah, YHWH, Yeshuah, Breath of Life, Jehovah Jah – the one true Messiah; the Living Word, Bread of Life, Water of the Spirit, Christ the King, Joshua of Bethlehem, Son of God, Son of Man: The Way the Truth the Life; Jesus of Nazareth

 

            PLEASE HUMANS

                        DO NOT BE LIKE THE FALLEN ONES BEFORE YOU

            BUT BE AS THE RISEN ONE BEFORE YOU: BE AS THE SECOND ADAM

                        THE SON/THE ONE/THE ONLY

                                    THE-I-AM

Antichrist World Agenda: don't be fooled! The Body of the man: 666 six hundred, sixty, and six

 

9/11/22-

Antichrist/n.w.o. agenda

We are reaching the 12 Monkeys phase. Gas is excessively expensive. Water droughts are worldwide. Fruits, vegetables, food supplies are less and less available until they will be replaced with synthetic, gmo, drugged up, lab-grown, 3d printed food. The devil and the tares will stop until they have poisoned or tainted every clean natural resource and farm that God created for us. The goal remains to move the world to processed synthetics.

 

It's evident, they want us all gone eventually. Again. Get the population down the half a billion. The only “humans” left are mostly satanic demon worshippers and only a million maybe less of God’s people are actually left on earth.

 

Well, the plans executed will before 2012 in the Maya, are alive and well, fully arrived, accepted on the world stage.

 

9/14/22-

Sandy Hook. (See the extensive videos online including Alex Jones/Enterthestarsreloaded) Sandy Hook was, like countless other world events, a ritual sacrifice carried out in the open right in front of everyone. (Like 9/11/2001 to Maui fires 8.8.2023 aka Jesus’ birthdate aka 88 the portal for the unmerciful demon Lahaina to get through along with other demonic spirits like Moana and Maui; cute names; all demons, demigods, and unclean spirits-anyway, carry on)

 

Sandy Hook was a sacrifice by the satanic/demonic elite to give children to the dragon/bull gods they worship. They gained too much attention from Alex Jones exposing them like he did with Bohemian Grove and of course, they have to send a message by staging the largest known lawsuit I’ve personally ever seen; 1.4 billion dollars?! Really?! Like Tasha K, he ain’t got it and even if he did, appeal it and call it a day.

 

These lies, corruption, deception, social abuse, mental abuse, MK ultra, predictive programming; constant insults and gaslighting to the point of no return; no words available in the human language to describe the utter disgust. They stopped at nothing to destroy Alex Jones and others like him and their messages of truth to the world. Julian Assange comes to mind. Like Brazil’s President said in an article from 9/20/23; you can’t punish for informing society in a transparent way. In my opinion, that’s all the Alex’s, Julian’s and every youtuber social media content creator is trying to do.

 

 

9/17/22-

The king of iron and clay

 

Daniel 2:43-45

 

⁴³ As you saw iron mixed with ceramic clay, they will mingle with the seed of men; but they will not adhere to one another, just as iron does not mix with clay. ⁴⁴ And in the days of these kings the God of heaven will set up a kingdom which shall never be destroyed; and the kingdom shall not be left to other people; it shall ^[a]break in pieces and ^[b]consume all these kingdoms, and it shall stand forever. ⁴⁵ Inasmuch as you saw that the stone was cut out of the mountain without hands, and that it broke in pieces the iron, the bronze, the clay, the silver, and the gold—the great God has made known to the king what will come to pass after this. The dream is certain, and its interpretation is sure.”

HEAD OF GOLD >

world leaders/dictators/tyrants/kings/queens/governments politics military

 

SILVER BODY >

Society/economy/health/welfare/human services/followers of nations include those under the antichrist

(side note 9/24/23 – the beast of the sea might be the United Nations-evidence is in their statues, plaques, images on their walls, the deep seeded evil in their corrupted reprobate leaders and followers, policies and programs being used now to destroy the old world and usher in the new world order-whole another study but pretty much self explanatory-back to the journal: Revelation 12 and Daniel 9 just so happens to coincide perfectly with my journal entry I’m working on now – see KJ’s What Happened video with Tik Tok – auntie coolette post 9/23/23 episode)

 

 

 

 

BRONZE LEGS >

States, cities, counties, town, villages, etc., walk/stand with the antichrist because they need the funding for infrastructure, over-bloated salaries, puffed up in a small group of pockets totally dependent on material-technology-metal-plastic; fake synthetic digital matrix world; simulating ‘real life’. Real Life as God intended was slowly destroyed/terraformed for the rise/fall of the antichrist and the fallen; this Daniel 2 “figure of man” is destroyed into oblivion at Jesus’ return.

 

IRON/CLAY FEET >

            That’s us now; the period from the fall of Rome to the scattered continuous shuffle of power as temporary lord of the flies from country to country; nation to nation until the New World Order unites as one for the final flush down the toilet. This period brings us full circle back to the days of Noah where there is mixture of demon seed with human womb; everything is “trans” – we covered that already, just take a word and put “trans” in front of it like “tele”. That’s us today. Gone. Mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally. Fallen angels and demons > humans > transfusion union into one – walking, talking, moving, breathing, fully functional unstable ground of imbalance. This will rust, fade, corrode, rot and die. Surely, I am coming soon - Revelation 22:20. Amen. Come, Lord Jesus!

 

 

Ambassadors of Christ: Productivity/Motivation

 

Comparison is a thief of joy. A reminder not to covet. Anytime you think someone else’s life is better than yours, there’s someone looking at your life saying the same thing. God gives you time talent and treasures to attain what you need in order to be a healthy productive member of God’s community.

            Colossians 3:17-23

¹⁷ And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Instructions for Christian Households

¹⁸ Wives, submit yourselves to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord.

¹⁹ Husbands, love your wives and do not be harsh with them.

²⁰ Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord.

²¹ Fathers,^[a] do not embitter your children, or they will become discouraged.

²² Slaves, obey your earthly masters in everything; and do it, not only when their eye is on you and to curry their favor, but with sincerity of heart and reverence for the Lord. ²³ Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,

            Matthew 6:19-20

Treasures in Heaven

¹⁹ “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. ²⁰ But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.

            Matthew 25:14-30

The Parable of the Bags of Gold

¹⁴ “Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his wealth to them. ¹⁵ To one he gave five bags of gold, to another two bags, and to another one bag,^[a] each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. ¹⁶ The man who had received five bags of gold went at once and put his money to work and gained five bags more. ¹⁷ So also, the one with two bags of gold gained two more. ¹⁸ But the man who had received one bag went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money.

¹⁹ “After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. ²⁰ The man who had received five bags of gold brought the other five. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with five bags of gold. See, I have gained five more.’

²¹ “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

²² “The man with two bags of gold also came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with two bags of gold; see, I have gained two more.’

²³ “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

²⁴ “Then the man who had received one bag of gold came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. ²⁵ So I was afraid and went out and hid your gold in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.’

²⁶ “His master replied, ‘You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? ²⁷ Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

²⁸ “‘So take the bag of gold from him and give it to the one who has ten bags. ²⁹ For whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. ³⁰ And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

 

 

AMBASSADORS OF CHRIST (2 Corinthians 5:20)

 

Culture <> Lifestyle

 

            Matthew 5:16

 

¹⁶ In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.

 

            Ephesians 2:10

 

¹⁰ For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

 

            1 Corinthians 10:31

 

So, whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.

 

Openthebible.org (4/23/15)

 

https://openthebible.org/article/how-to-be-productive-according-to-the-bible/

 

How to Be Productive According to the Bible

By Kevin Halloran –

 

It’s like an ambassador’s guide to stay motivated in an unmotivated world 😊